Dark night reflections

A lot of us who are motivated to love and serve God really get upset with ourselves when we revert to behaviors and attitudes that make other people wonder if we're really what we represent ourselves to be.

I certainly feel that way tonight.

It's not that I behaved publicly in a way that would call negative attention on myself. Incredible as this may sound about me, it's not even because I said something to somebody that hurt or demoralized someone.

In this case, it's because I've done things in a difficult part of my life to effectively master that I vowed never to do again.

I can almost hear a lot of you saying as you read this...big deal, I do stuff like that all the time! Stop kicking yourself and move on already.

Well, it's not that easy...if I purport to be someone who obeys God for direction in my life, how can I NOT be upset with myself for doing things that I know better than to do?

And if you're like me in that regard, you do the same thing...don't tell me you don't.

And if we use the Bible as the guide for our lives, isn't that a comfort, in a way?

For didn't the apostle Paul write that he would boast in his weakness, for as he puts it, "When I am weak, then I'm strong."

In other words, it's precisely in THOSE moments that we're exactly where God wants us, fully dependent on Him, and knowing that we can't come anywhere near where we need to be to be what we want to be.

And knowing that, it's in those times that we're actually as close to God as we ought to be.

And since that's where I am right now, that's why I still have hope, despite my circumstances...hope that everything will be all right.

So if you feel that way right now, be thankful! You're in a good place!

UPDATE: To those of you who are curious, no, I didn't do anything illegal or sinful here, just something that didn't exercise the best judgment(not that I don't do sinful things periodically...but you know what I mean...I hope!).

Page 1 of 1 pages

Comments

Add Comments

Name:

Email:

Location:

URL:

Please enter the word you see in the image below:

* Note: Members of Southern Gospel News.com who are logged in do not have to fill in the above information each time they post

By posting you agree to our Comments Policy

Remember my personal information

Notify me of follow-up comments?